Wednesday, May 19, 2010
I feel so good today. I'm not sure if it's because it was chilly when I threw in my laundry this morning. Oregon mornings in May are just awesome, if I do say so myself... which I will. :)

Mornings aside, I think it might be a right time in the morning to think about what it means to be a human being in this world. There's a line from the Bhagavad Gita that a lot of people might recognize from their history books. J. Robert Oppenheimer said it to describe part of the way he felt after the completion of the Trinity test. "I am become death, the destroyer of worlds." In all of the major religious texts of the world, there is always something powerfully evil pushing it's way into the world in the end. Even among children, the seers of all, have their own tales that give a bleaker, more hopeless account of life and the reasons why things are.

Is this just a ploy to lure in those non-believers who feel a story can't end perfectly? Or is there truly something that even children can sense that encroaches upon Earth that could completely wipe it out?

I blame assassin's creed 2 for this most recent introspection on the life, the world and everything.

.out
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Thursday, May 13, 2010
Living as a teenager in Gresham, Oregon is a very unique experience. I have to deal with the Scotland festival at Mount Hood Community College every year and the people who try to park in my neighborhood. I get to ride the MAX to the Saturday Market when I have the time and enjoy the wonderful street food and performances by Skidmore fountain. I'm not the type of person who will drive a Hummer when they get their license, but honestly I'm having a good enough time dealing with the time discrepancies of the bus routes on 247th and Division. But why should that matter? I'm a senior in high school moving on to college soon, and only slightly worried about how my children are going to pay for the amount of debt incurred over the last ten years by our wonderful country's president.

Don't get me wrong. I love the country that I live in - we have the most cultural diversity in the world and some of the highest amount of freedom in the world. Freedom of speech, freedom of press and a bunch other wonderful goodies. But I have to admit that I'm scared for our country's future. I've seen how Greece has progressed with their debt and the riots that keep popping up. I'm worried that if we keep going a liberal way, we might end up the same way as Greece.

I'm worried. I want my country to realize that we have to curb our spending. But what use is a high school girl's opinion in a sea of distress?
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Friday, May 7, 2010
This is what I need. I have my first, and only, IB Senior English, section 3 exam coming up in a few hours. I'm hoping that before I get to the point that I'm going to puke, that I'll be able to defeat the test with flying colors. So says the optimist in me.

Part of me feels like the world is trying to go against me right now, because I've got the show coming up next week, which I've had to take off from work, I still have to fix my beloved laptop (I'm writing this on my boyfriend's lump of metal), and I need to find a way to earn enough money to replace my now trashed Wacom tablet. I figured that, by now, I should be done with some of the stuff I've been working on... a few requests by people, drawings for characters, concept art for my project, "Caspien", and beginning my college sketch book.

All 388 pages of my old sketch book are almost filled, but not full enough. It has four years of my work in it... the progression of my style and how I've finally begun to get an idea on what I'm going to do when I turn pro. Should I ever. Now, I'm just hoping that by the end of today I will be in one piece and be able to finish one of three last drawings I have left on my list. Then I can start putting the right cover on my old book and start looking for that perfect replacement. Here's to luck.. oh, and 19 days left of my senior year. Holy shit.
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